Relapse

Things have been super bad the last few weeks and it seems as if things will never get better. My acting out has cost me a lot of money and put me at risk for other things. This is the progression of the addiction. I'm struggling with learning ways to fight back against the urges. My life is quickly falling out of control. Things I once had control over are not out of whack. Im not really sure where to go from here, and I certainly feel a lone on this journey. I do want to get better, yet it seems like each time I relapse, it gets worse and worse. The things I'm doing and the money im spending continue to pile up. Is there hope for people like me? Is it worth fighting this battle each day or should I just give up? The mind is a powerful thing and tends to play a lot of tricks on us. Its like I dont know which way to go, turn, or who to talk to. Feeling lost can't even describe how I feel anymore....help :(